sometimes I forget about God, without even realizing it. and life becomes really scary. it starts to feel pointless and short. I start to belittle “love” and emotion and wonder why I care about anything, ever. God is like the glue. yea I’m alive, and I have to eat and go to the bathroom and clean my house and “be nice,” but why? I feel like love is pretty dumb and a waste of time if God doesn’t exist. if God doesn’t exist, I’m just mechanical, running on ATP and controlled by hormones. I’m not good at talking about my relationship with God, because nothing about it is easy or obvious to me. at this point in my life, I just know that when I don’t think about him or talk to him, I start to lose all worth and energy.
I wanna know what people assume about me because of my tumblr.
Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested. You can go anon if you want.
im gonna be so fucking mean, ill fucking tear you apart
(Source: beautifulandscary, via do-no-van)
the only reason someone would ask me this is because they’re interested in possibly being the one I’m seeing. but how interested are you really if you haven’t gone through even my most recent personal posts- Where I explicitly state that I am seeing someone.
I have no idea who this is but this could essentially be a quote from every person that has ever known me. lol my advice, if you’re a tumblr friend, is to use a tag filter. I tag all those posts with opinion. always. that’s an easy fix, I think. but if you’re someone IRL, you’ll just have to quit me. If I am drawn to someone, I want to be their friend no matter how much I disagree with them, but I’ve finally coped with the fact that most people are not capable of the same.
oh you mean george glass? HE’S JUST A VERY PRIVATE PERSON
after high school. between 2008 and 2009.
actually no, Im not. but its pretty much a forever kinda thing. like a “you’re awesome, Im awesome, our daughter’s awesome, this is awesome” forever kinda thing. at this point getting married is more for the ceremony, so we’re putting it off until we at least have enough money for the nice outfits, a weekend trip, and maybe some tattoos.
you too. I swear its the modern day witch hunt and it is taking away from real racism.
- I have four younger brothers ages 15, 13, 5, and 3
- I have a nuwave and it is marvelous
- I often shave using conditioner
- Ive never really enjoyed public pools or water parks
- all pizza is good pizza, some is better
- the LOST finale was everything I could ever want it to be +2 ziplock bags of tears
- my senior year in high school I wrote my creative writing teacher a poem begging him to pass me (he did)
- I breastfed adela until she turned one, she weened herself, I cried a little
- I met and fell in love with antonio while working at a movie theater, my mother damns the day I ever started working there (lol)
- my mom is probably my best friend. and now we’re raising toddlers together. interesting turn of events, but its become a comedic good time
